DAY 365

 

Picked up a bunch of things I ordered for Everest, and walked for an hour with my mom by the sea. I told her about what I learnt this year, and realized I learnt a shit ton more than I ever did in school ahah. But upon reflection, I also realized there were a few key influencers that helped nudge me in the right direction. So I came home and compiled the quotes that I think had the biggest impact on my life.

 

They are:

 

"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting different results."

-Albert Einstein.

 

"May your heart be bigger than any challenge you face."

 

"It's nice to be important, but it's more important to be nice."

 

"Mood follows action."

 

"A good life is not a place at which you arrive, it is a lens through which you see and create your world."

 

"Hakuna Matata"

 

"How you do anything is how you do everything."

 

"Attitude of Gratitude"

 

“The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation. "

-Henry David Thoreau

“Where you tend a rose my lad, a thistle cannot grow.” 

Frances Hodgson Burnett,

 

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. "

-Ralph Waldo Emerson 

 

"Our chief want is someone who will inspire us to be what we know we could be. "

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

 

"Nobody can bring you peace but yourself. "

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

"Follow Your Bliss"

-Joseph Campbell.

 

In a way this was the most profound one, it was what initially set me on this journey of change and happiness. 

 

Also, WTF, I realized today was my last day of daily blogging. Honestly, it totally just snuck up on me. I'm so used to doing these blogs everyday that it's really not even an effort to me whatsoever. It's just a nightly routine like brushing my teeth. But either way, because it's my last day, I wanted to sum up some of the lessons I've learnt from this year, some from those that I look up to, and some just from my own experiences:

 

Things are usually okay

It's either a: win or learn

Adventure is for everyone

Smile, trust me it’s worth it

Be intentional

Be open

Be creative

Be kind

Before u can be unapologetically joyful, you must first be unapologetically ourselves

Be you

Question everything

Idolize no one

Applaud humility

 

And with that last note, I'm now going to be parting ways with daily blogging, who knows I may return to it, but for the time being, I'm signing off.

AND MAN, what a fucking year it's been. Oh so much to be grateful for.

DAY 363

GUYS I'm realizing Everest Base Camp is quickly approaching, and I havent trained at all for it. lol, so anyways, this morning I went on a jog around my neighbourhood in the crisp cool autumn air. But man was it a gorgeous day. And after getting home and running all my errands, I met up with Emma from Zimt Chocolates (the most bomb ass vegan raw chocolate company) at Bump n Grind. We got some chocolate chip cookies, and she brought me some chocolate caramels that she's testing out and thinking of putting into production. The texture of the caramel just melted in my mouth is was so smooth like velvet haha. And after catching up, I realized hilariously that Emma is the reason I'm going to Everest and the reason I even stumbled across Geckos. She posted on Facebook about this collab she was doing with another Vancouver Food reporter, and tagged intrepid travels, and mentioned how they were big on responsible travel. That was how I stumbled across them and why I emailed them commending their efforts towards responsible travel. And Geckos, is the sister company of Intrepid. Anyways, its just so funny how one thing can lead to another. AND the only reason I know Emma, is because she was actually a graduate of Sauder (the business school I went to), and she came to do a talk for one of my business classes when I was in uni, and since I was sitting in the front row (I was and always will be a keener :P) she could see me, and she actually recognized me from the crowd as @happyandhealthy96 haha. And from there we started hanging out, and she started supplying me with so much vegan chocolate. Which meant I was having chocolate for breakfast often, since that's the only time I can have chocolate lol. She told me all about her business plans and projects. Her current focus is finding and acquiring a warehouse for her own manufacturing facility. HOW COOL! 

I also went to chiro today which is always lovely hehe. Any vegan chiropractors out there I can marry? ahha.

But besides that, my day was mostly eating, editing, and driving around running errands. 

 

Life is swell.

DAY 362

Went into the woods today for some much needed time with my fav things: trees. I met up with 2 of my friends from UBC who are both varsity rowers and VEGAN how cool eh? And they took me for an easy 40 min jog in the beautiful trails in the endowment lands. It was their afternoon workout and just hearing them talk about their training was so inspiring to me to just push myself athletically more. I haven't been training much (at all) and going for a run in the fresh autumn air and being with them reminded me why I love moving my body. Also something funny that happened was, while Leah and I were waiting for Kristina we walked to their erg room to grab Leah's runners, and one of the rowers who was there told me I looked like this girl who was friends with a YouTuber BONNY Rebecca! HOW FUNNY AHAH, I said that that was actually me and Leah and I had a good laugh about it. Besides that wonderful run with my friends, I also realized the enormity of my packing list for Everest base camp and started ordering extra batteries, SD cards etc for my cameras. Besides the gear and clothing the main issue besides the weather is going to be the lack of consistent power for me to charge all my devices, so now that I've ordered everything I think I'll need to combat that, I just need to get a whole heap of layers and rain/ hiking gear. Oh and BARS I'll need tons of cliff and vega bars 😊 but besides bars for snacks the food that the tea houses serve along the trek are all super vegan friendly. They all have porridge, veggie noodles and Dahl. So much Dahl and rice which is fine by me 🤗.

Also after getting home, I skyped Bonny and man was it good to just catch up and hear her voice. I missed so many things about her and Tim, like him constantly asking her where his things are, or the sound of her grinding cardamom seeds for her rice flakes ahah. And after a beautiful dinner at home, I went for a walk with my mom before hitting bed. Twas a good day.

DAY 361

 

Today was a pretty fantabulous day. It was busy as ever, but right from the get go I was seeing the world in a lens of dogs, and flowers. And it's not that today was unusually dog and flower filled, but it's just that I chose to notice and actually see them instead of just glancing over them like I sometimes do. And as Jonathan Fields says: 

“A good life is not a place at which you arrive, it is a lens through which you see and create your world.”

 

Man I love that quote.

 

So besides the usual errands and some boring meetings, some other exciting events transpired today. I had amazing sushi, and seriously guys the sushi in Vancouver is next level, come just for that. And because the sushi place was right across from my High School, I bumped into a girl I used to know who was in grade 8 when I was graduating, and she told me that some of my fav teachers still talk about me and are so proud of what I've accomplished, and it just made me feel like I needed to see them and just say thank you to them again for everything they've done for me. So I went into my highschool, which was totally hilarious to walk the halls as an adult, and hunted down my fav teachers. So my all time fav teacher was my Social studies/ law teacher. He was not only just the most hilarious, sarcastic, easy going fun teacher, but he was also just such a kind and caring guy. When I was in grade 11, and going through all my struggles with family, and eventually my eating disorder, he not only noticed my decay in vibrancy and health, but constantly made sure I knew that he was there for me emotionally. Of course I was way too much in denial that I had an issue to accept the help, but just knowing that he cared warmed my heart. For some reason he just had this belief and faith in me that I would find my way, and man am I grateful for that. It truly felt like he was almost a father figure and role model to me in a time when I hated and distanced myself from my own father. So first I went to his room, and after knocking on his door, and seeing a very surprised teacher open the door, I gave him a huge hug, and we just sat down and chatted about everything. I caught him up on my life, and he told me all about what his kids were up to. During our chat, a few of his current students came in and out, and I started talking to some of them. They were all pretty intrigued to hear about what I "do" and I just kept emphasizing to them not to stress about what they want to do, and to DABBLE. To try different things, be creative, and not feel like they need to have their life planned out by 18. At the end of the lunch hour when I left, I thanked him once again for everything he's done for me, and he told me he still had the thank you letter I had written for him tucked away, and I just felt tears well up in my eyes. So I quickly hugged him again and excused myself. 

Next up was my high school counsellor. He as well was just an unbelievable support system for me my entire high school experience. Anything from family problems, to questions about AP classes, to my ED, he was there, and he never judged just sat and listened to me when I felt like no one else would listen. Also I'd like to mention that he's actually veg, and a cyclist, like WOAH. hahaha, anyways, while I was waiting for him to finish with a student he was helping, I met this grade 11 girl who was waiting for her counsellor, and we had a long chat, where I just tried to impart any of the wisdom I've gained these last 3 years with her. She was telling me about how her mom plans out her every second, and how she feels so lost because she doesn't know what to do. The vice principal (who I also loved, actually tbh I loved all my teachers, except for my foods teacher... ahah), was also there and chimed in. We both talked about how taking a left turn, and just feeling the freedom to explore and try new things is so OKAY. And after I got talking on a tangent, he told me I should email him so I could possibly help out some of the grads by giving a talk or holding an open Q&A ahah, and even though I'm crazy busy I would love nothing more than to do so and give back. And after realizing I was horribly late to meet Griff, I said my good byes and darted out of there to meet him. He's off to Boulder (one of my fav places in the world) in a few days, so it was great to see him before he jets off. I saw SO many dogs, and also got to run into my FAV dog breed in the world. But I always forget what they're called, and so when I bumped into that dog and her owner, I finally got to ask and learnt that they're called: Nova Scotian duck tolling retriever. I know Random AF name, do you blame me for not remembering?

haah. I also used my coupons to get Griff some of my fav cereal. I also stumbled across this gem of a store in Kerrisdale, an area I basically grew up in, but this store: Ole, is relatively new so I hadn't fully explored it. First of all, it had vegan gummies, ice cream, kombucha, juice elixirs, awesome sauces, cereal and everything else that I love ahah, and second of all, the most outgoing, hilarious Veggo employee works there. So his name's Bryan, and after finding out we were vegan he told us that he's vegetarian for the animals, and was vegan for 6 months because he thinks the dairy industry is awful (which it is), but couldn't give up cheese. But he said he's trying to get back to vegan! WOOT. He showed us these sesame crepes that they sell, and omg it was such a blast from the past. They're an asian treat and I used to eat them daily. I also made Griff buy some maple butter before he leaves Canada, cuz come on, Canada = maple. I mean its our flippin flag ahha. But around 2:30 I jetted off to make my chiro appointment, and holy F, it was amazing. It made me realize how much I had taken Jens (my chiropractor friend from Adelaide) for granted. He adjusted me, and my back felt a million times looser and better. Man I love chiropractors, I need to marry one I swear. The rest of the day was mostly working on editing, answering emails, and other adult responsibilities, but I did make some homemade granola which was just perfection. And that was my day in a nut shell. And what a wonderous nut shell it was :P

DAY 360

 

I realized today that I haven't really stopped to ponder the enormity of my next trip. Not only am I doing Everest Base Camp, something I never thought I'd do, but I'm doing it for free because I'm working with Gecko Adventures as an ambassador... like what?! I'm basically getting to travel for free, and all I'm doing is posting on social media what I'd normally do regardless because I'd want to share this amazing experience with my followers. And I stopped and reflected on something I used to say all the time: I wish I could just get to travel as my work. 

And now I'm literally doing that. I think that in the whirlwind that has been these last few weeks I haven't really even let that sink in. That everything I've been doing these last 3 years has lead to this amazing reality, and that when I was just taking pretty photos of food 3 years ago, I would NEVER have imagined that a little ole instagram account would take me so far, to all corners of the world, and to meeting so many amazing people. But it did require faith and trust. When others told me I should get a real job, or go back to school, I trusted that because I was doing something I loved and that I thought was bettering the world, that the universe would provide. And it has and did. But even beyond just my instagram, this opportunity is truly 20 years in the making. Every experience negative and positive, has gotten me to this point in my life. Every little hiccup and bump in the road has shaped and brought me to this moment right here, eating cereal in my kitchen in Vancouver BC. 

 

Thank you universe, and thank you world for being there and providing everything I will ever need. (mountains, cereal and love).

DAY 359

So after yesterday's lazy day, I was back at it all day today woot. First took a little nature walk with my momma, being in nature and with my mom were both much needed. Then I went to Eliza's house to film a video for her and her siblings company: Livvy's bakery. They make oil free vegan cookies, and they are to die for. We filmed a hilarious recipe video for a vegan blizzard and just had the best time filming it.

Even though it was work, it honestly just felt like friends hanging out eating ice cream and cookies ahaha. Suffice it to say, it was a delicious few hours, and very productive. Then she sent me home with a goodie bag of 4 cookies, which I was supposed to share with my fam... yea I ate them all haahha. I've had so many cookeis today I can't even deal LOL. My fav was a london fog cookie, which just blew my mind. Tasted like vanilla earl grey gooey goodness. From there I went straight to my parents clinic to help them make some herbal capsules, I was doing it out of the goodness of my heart (lol nope jk they paid me to help ahha), and after an hour of breathing in herbal powder, and coughing it back out every few minutes, I finally got home and more importantly finally checked my email. And I just got an email that stopped me in my tracks. My state of mind at that precise moment was: adequately stressed, thinking about my to do list, thinking about my day tomorrow, planning out my next week's goals, and this email brought me back to me. And by that, I mean who I am, what I'm about, and why I wake up everyday. It was an email from a 13 year old girl who said my ebook saved her life. 

Truly the rest of the day was spent in a much different mindset, and although I was still constructing to do lists, and thinking about my plans, I was doing it with much more conviction and purpose, convinced that there was more behind my errands, and busy days, than just the tasks themselves. They're all to help facilitate my ability to better spread my message. And my message is simple. Love yourself, love the planet, and love others. 

DAY 357

So since I'm going to everest in less than a month, my main focus is preparing for that, and the first thing I need to do is wear in my hiking boots, so I started my day by taking a like hour walk in my boots to the store and back to buy... cereal lol. Then I proceeded to get shit DONE. ahha, I edited, wrote, sketched met a friend for lunch and we had a splendid time. He's a new friend so we basically just chatted for like an hour straight just getting to know each other. And at the end of it, he told me he'd never met someone who asked so many questions ahahahaha. What can I say I'm a curious curious person. Then I had a kinda "business" meeting if you can call it that with this veggie based milk company, and after maybe 5 minutes of talking about their milk and their products he started asking me all these questions about life, happiness, and what not, and it was so much fun. haha. I felt like I learnt so much mroe about myself because his questions made me stop and reflect on my life and what I've learnt. So I came home and decided to well first eat since I'd just been running around all day, then made a cereal talk video about some of what we talked about at our coffee meetup. And after eating the cereal I ended up eating the whole box for dinner, but around8 I got peckish so I made myself a bowl of rice with broccoli, tahini and ketchup, sounds random I know but its tasty. My big bro also came home and we had a jam session to a whole bunch of old tunes, we even had a little harmonizing sesh with: Just the Girl. Fuck I love that song.

Also I read this tonight, and it struck a core. Thought I'd share it:

“A good life is not a place at which you arrive, it is a lens through which you see and create your world.”

DAY 356

Today was all about saying no.

 

Last night I had one of the worst sleeps in ages, and I know it's because i've stretched myself too thin. This is what initially started my spiral into my ED years ago, so when I picked up on it, I made sure to course correct today. In many ways, I hate saying no. I hate saying no to friends, people who want my help, or even to paid opportunities. I always feel like I'm letting them down or dissapointing them. But I'm realizing that if by saying yes to everything I'm simultaneously neglecting my own health and happiness then the only person I'm dissapointing is myself. So today I regretfully but mindfully excused myself out of a few commitments and projects, and after doing so I felt a huge weight lift off of me. I was able to carry about my day with an extra spring in my step and get all the errands I had planned for today accomplished. PLAN: prepare for everest base camp is in ACTION!

When I visited my highschool cousellor today he asked me if I was training for it, I mean it's the first time I've really thought about that and I honestly have no clues. I mean I'm not summiting, just going to base camp.. I'm gonna assume No, since I've done shit all fitness these last few weeks ahahah, but who knows maybe that'll spur me into action and get me back into a regular routine of movement! heeh. 

So today was my reset and recallibrate day, and I feel so much better about EVERYTHING, and i'm ready to conquer these next few weeks. I swear my life has never been busier or more hectic, eeee, but its all exciting, productive stress so I'm okay with it :)

 

Good night everyone, and remember, sometimes saying No requires more strength than saying Yes. So if you're looking for permission to say no to certain things in your life that are counter productive to your goal of being happy and healthy, then take this blog post as permission. Say No. :)