A Beautiful Mess - Hi Dad.

Hi Dad, I know we've had our difficulties and misunderstandings, but I love you, and I'm so grateful for you.

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Hope you guys enjoyed this episode, it was a little different from what I usually post, but I really felt like this conversation was a long time coming, and I know that many of you can relate to the difficulties I've had with my dad, so hopefully sharing this can help just one another person relate with their family members.

Much Love, 
Steph.

PS if you have any questions DM me @happyandhealthy96

A Beautiful Mess - On Being Sad

A Beautiful Mess- On Being Sad

I’ve been feeling sad the last few days, so naturally I thought I’d turn on my mic and chat about with you all ahah. I hope you all enjoy!

If you have any questions send me a message on instagram @happyandhealthy96

And as always, thanks for listening.

 

This is a piece I wrote on being sad for instagram, thought I’d share it here as well.

 

I have a naturally sunny, happy disposition, so though I often move through life with a smile, I, like most people experience times of sadness. I’ve been feeling kind of sad the last few days so I just want to chat about it with you all.

 

Sadness is one of our 6 basic emotions (fear, happiness, surprise, disgust, anger & sadness) & they all serve a valuable purpose both evolutionarily speaking & in our ability to live a meaningful life. Feeling all these emotions is a natural part of life & being human. 

 

The etymology of the word emotions comes from the latin term EMOVERE which means moving or movement. And it’s such a great way of understanding our emotions as dynamic & in flux. They come & go like waves, so holding onto one particular emotion or trying to avoid another is futile.

 

We’ve been taught by society that certain emotions are better than others & that we should try to avoid the “negative” emotions. But in doing so we rob ourselves of a beautiful part of life. The contrasts & polarities that exist are what give this life greater meaning. Our times of sadness are what give our joy more richness & depth, our experience of unease give our moments of peace that much more magic.

 

In Buddhist philosophy life is suffering & it’s Inevitable that we feel pain, get hurt, rejected, experience loss, heartache etc. And looming over us constantly is this existential angst of understanding the meaning of life & why we’re here. But though it’s tempting to want to close ourselves off from feeling pain, there’s no selective numbing that allows us to only choose certain emotions. when we numb ourselves to pain, sadness, suffering, We end up losing touch with our ability to truly feel joy, love & wonder.

 

The greatest purpose these different emotions have served in my life is that they bring more colour, shape, texture, & meaning to my experience of life. They give context & provide a greater understanding for mine & other peoples feelings. And when we can let ourselves surrender to what we’re feeling in an honest manner, let that emotion move through us, and allow ourselves to feel without needing to justify our necessarily understand why - it can be like a wave, that reaches its peak, then washes over us- eventually dissolves into the sand. Leaving us open to learning from it, growing, & feeling grounded & balanced within ourselves.

 

In the case of sadness, I personally think it motivates us to take stock and reflect on our lives, and oftentimes move forward with renewed goals, clarified direction and better understanding of ourselves and what matters to us. Sadness communicate to me what I’ve been neglecting, what I really love and helps me prioritize what will bring me fulfillment. And by understanding and accepting our internal experience of sadness, we are validating ourselves. This self-validation is almost like a huge sigh of relief to me. It helps me feel accepted by myself (we are often our harshest critics) and that I’m fine just the way I am, and not in need of being “fixed.” It helps me feel at peace with knowing that I’m exactly where I need to be, and that everything is- eventually- going to be okay. 

A Beautiful Mess - Pastor Dean on Self Worth, Radicle Love & The Power of Prayer

A Beautiful Mess - Pastor Dean on Self Worth, Radicle Love & The Power of Prayer

 

My wonderful friend and Pastor, Dean makes a return to the Podcast for an incredible conversation on Love, the Divine, Embracing Change, Prayer, and so much more.

 

Hope you all enjoy!

 

And if you have any questions please message me on instagram @happyandhealthy96.

You can also find Dean on instagram @deaner.

 

As always, thank you for listening.

Much Love,

Steph. X

A Beautiful Mess- How we Deal with "Bad" Days, My Book & Reflecting on This Year With Akeem

A Beautiful Mess- How we Deal with "Bad" Days, My Book & Reflecting on This Year With Akeem

If you haven't listened to my podcast episode with Akeem, you can listen to it here.

Akeem from episode 7 returns to the podcast for a casual but very inspiring conversation. We just turned on the mic, started asking each other questions, exploring emotional weight, how we deal with bad days, and so much more.

Leave a review of the podcast if you’re enjoying it. And as always thank you for listening.

If you have any questions message me on Instagram @happyandhealthy96 xo

A Beautiful Mess- Hillary McBride on Loving our Bodies, Eating Disorders & How to Live More Embodied.

How many of us live our lives truly in our bodies? Experiencing and present to everything we go through in life. How many of us are embracing embodiment and allowing ourselves to feel safe in ourselves through all that we feel, the joy and pain, the ease and struggle?

 

Todays conversation is a deep dive into Hillary McBride’s world of work as a Therapist, Researcher, Author & Speaker specializing in the field of Embodiment, body image, mother-daughter relationships, and how to live a more full life. We explore Eating disorders, the process and concept of loving ourselves and our bodies, the process of healing, and really at the end of the day - what it means to be human.

This is one of my favourite conversations of all time and Hillary has quickly become one of my biggest mentors and inspirations in my life.

If you’re interested in learning more about Hillary definitely check out her website and blog at http://hillarylmcbride.com/. And if you’re interested in reading her book, you can find it on Amazon here: Mothers Daughters, and Body Image.

A Beautiful Mess- Lauren Toyota, on her Cookbook, Trust & Creativity

Zach and I got to sit down with the incredible Lauren Toyota from Hot For Food for an impromptu therapy session aha and to discuss her new (INCREDIBLE) cookbook Vegan Comfort Classics. It was such a pleasure talking to and getting to know Lauren, I truly just admire her so much for her honesty and audacity.

Check out her book here:

https://www.hotforfoodblog.com/cookbook/

https://www.hotforfoodblog.com/

And as always, if you have any questions DM me on Instagram @happyandhealthy96.

Thanks so much for listening, and talk to you guys soon,

Steph. XX

 

A Beautiful Mess - Faith, Vulnerability & Spirituality Without Borders (with Dean Morris & Zach Berman)

A Beautiful Mess - Faith, Vulnerability & Spirituality Without Borders (with Dean Morris & Zach Berman)

This week I’m joined again by my impromptu informal co-host Zach Berman (my episode with Zach if you haven't listened to it yet is here ) and our mutual friend Dean Morris. Strictly going by job labels and societal identification, Dean is a pastor, but it’s clear to me as he’s sitting across from Zach and I as a man in his mid 30’s with two daughters in a forest green sweater, Lululemon pants, and a Patagonia toque that he’s not your average pastor. 

This was indefinitely a conversation about faith. But not faith in the conventional term. I’m the first to say that I am a spiritual seeker who’s always learning and growing and eager to find the message of love and mystery anywhere in any form it appears. And today with Dean, we explore the Bible and the life of Christ. For anyone out there who might cringe just by hearing the word Jesus, Christianity or even just religion, please just listen to the end and stay open minded. I’m personally not religious, but I took so much away from this conversation with Dean and learnt so much about the true pure origins of Christianity and can now whole heartedly say I think Jesus was an incredible enlightened inspiring human, and modelling a life based on how he lived is something that I think we could all benefit from.

My co host Zach summed up this conversation beautifully, not only is this just three people talking about life and what it means to be human, it’s primarily a dialogue about “love, peace, vulnerability and spirituality with our borders.”

Alright, hope you all enjoy and dont forget if you have any questions to send me a message @happyandhealthy96 on instagram.

And as always, thank you for listening.

A Beautiful Mess- Letting go of Shame & Knowing our Worth with Katie McKenzie

A Beautiful Mess- Letting go of Shame & Knowing our Worth with Katie McKenzie

This conversation is about as raw and unfiltered as it gets, and it truly left me so inspired and excited to share it with you all. Katie is truly a powerhouse of vulnerability and had me crying more than once during the episode. We covered so many topics from shame/guilt, to mental health in general, body image, relationships/love, self-love, knowing our own inherent worth, and the illusion of needing to do our passion for our work. But at the end of the day, it was just an honest and open conversation between two individuals on their own personal experiences living and struggling through this beautifully messy life. I'm just so blown away by the humility, strength and love that Katie embodies and I can't wait for you all to get to know her too.

Also just as a side note, I was extremely stuffed up while recording this so I apologize for the nasally voice and constant sniffling, ahah. Hope you all enjoy regardless, and as always I love hearing your feedback so message me on instagram @happyandhealthy96 with any questions or comments.

And to keep up with Katie's adventures, find her on instagram @ktcakes03

Thanks so much for listening,

Much Love,

Steph. XX

A Beautiful Mess- The Spiritual Practice of Being Vegan (With Anna Pippus & Zach Berman)

A Beautiful Mess- The Spiritual Practice of Being Vegan (With Anna Pippus & Zach Berman)

I’m so excited to share this episode with you guys, it’s one that’s been a while in the making and something I’ve been thinking about for a long time. Today I’m joined with two of my best friends Anna and Zack to dive deep into the connection and the conversation around spirituality and being vegan we explore the disconnect that can often exist between people in the spiritual community and eating a vegan diet. But at the end the day we really just have an honest dialogue on how we can all be more kind, more patient, more present & more loving in our every day lives. We really had fun and let the conversation flow and go wherever it wanted to go and at the end the day we covered far more than I had planned. We talked about parenting and the spirituality of being a parent, we talked about how we practice mindfulness and we talked about how it’s always a practice and there’s never an end destination to strive for. Some thing that I think sums it up perfectly is: practice makes practice there is no such thing as practice makes perfect because there’s always more to learn more to improve and more to practice. I truly hope you guys enjoy this episode and let me know if you have any questions or any opinions that you want to share, and if there are differing opinions I’d love to hear them I’m always open to constructive criticism and hearing different perspective so shoot me a direct message on Instagram if you’d like to chat. thanks as always for listening and talk to guys soon.

And if you guys wanna learn more about Anna, she’s a mother of two an animal rights lawyer and activis,t and just a truly kind human being, but for more on Anna here’s a link to her site.

And if you missed my podcast episode with Zach, it’s episode #16.

And to follow both of them on social media their handles on Instagram are at @zacktuck and  @easyanimalfree.

Much love, and as always thank you for listening,

Steph. XX

A Beautiful Mess - Zach Berman (co-owner of Juice Truck) on travel, community, gratitude & more.

Zach is truly one of my favourite people. He is such a kindred spirit, kind soul, and humble human, and has quickly become one of my close friends. The way that he lives his life, and carries himself is an inspiration to me and so many others. Hope you guys enjoy learning a little bit of his origin story to how he became the person he is now.

 

He’s the co-owner of Juice Truck (a plant based smoothie & juice bar/ cafe) and you can follow them on Instagram @juicetruck.

 

Or follow his personal adventures on Instagram @zachtruck.

 

Hope you guys enjoy and as always, thanks for listening. If you have any questions DM me on my Instagram @happyandhealthy96 X

A Beautiful Mess - Q&A / Life Update (Work, Weight Gain, Fitness, Travel?)

Today, I go over some questions I've been getting a lot about whats going on in my life! I'll be doing a part 2 to get to more of your amazing questions so stay tuned for that! In the meantime hope you guys enjoy this episode, and peek into what the last year has been like for me!
If you have any questions you want me to cover, DM them to me on instagram @happyandhealthy96!


Much Love, and as always, thank you for listening!

Steph.X

A Beautiful Mess - Fear of Not Being Successful / Life is NOW.

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Today's episode is some #realtalk about a fear thats been lurking around my mind for awhile, and that is the fear that I'll never accomplishing anything of significance.  It's been an interesting week, learning and examining this fear at face value, and learning how to let it go. 

I hope you guys enjoy and get something out of this episode.

and if you have any feedback or want to get in touch with me, message me on instagram @happyandhealthy96! Thank you all so much for listening, and for all the love and support, and as always, I'll talk to you guys next week.

Much Love,
Steph.

A Beautiful Mess - What is Beauty? How to Practice Self Love & Self Compassion

I am so excited to share this episode with you all, it's truly one of my all time favourite conversations. My friend Sian and I sat down and just dissected what our definitions of beauty mean to us, how we practice self love and mindfulness, and what it means to be patient and compassionate with ourselves and others in our life.

I dont want to say too much, because i'm just going to let this conversation speak for itself. I really hope you guys enjoy and get something out of it, and if you have any feedback or want to get in touch with me, message me on instagram @happyandhealthy96! Thank you all so much for listening, and for all the love and support, and as always, I'll talk to you guys next week.

Much Love,
Steph.

PS: Sian's instagram is @thebusinessofyou, she's an amazing women, definitely give her a follow!
 

A Beautiful Mess-Janine: On Body Image/Beauty, Happiness & Service

Janine is one special woman. Besides being one of my closest dearest friends. She's one of the people in my life who have the most light, love, beauty and joy radiating from their hearts. Her life is dedicated to service and giving back, and her influence on my life has just been radical. 

Our conversation today covers so many topics. We get to hear a bit of her childhood and story growing up in Argentina, her personal spirituality, how she finds happiness, and her words of wisdom on beauty standards and body image. 

Thank you all so much for listening, and as always, let me know your feedback by sending me a message on instagram @happyandhealthy96, or leaving a review on Itunes.

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A Beautiful Mess-Catlin: On God, Love, Grace & why we should embrace community

This was truly such an illuminating conversation for me, on Christianity, spirituality, and a personal relationship with the divine.

I just ask that you keep an open mind throughout the whole conversation, and trust that whether you believe the same beliefs Catlin has or not, take it from me, he is one of the most giving, kind people I know so lets tune in and listen to what he has to say.

 

I think the takeaway from this episode is, there are many roads that we can take on our spiritual journey, and most of them lead to the same place of unity, love, service and humility. And it's not about saying that one is right or the other is wrong, more about finding which one resonates with you, or maybe even forging your own unique path. 

 

Thank you all so much for listening, and as always, let me know your feedback by sending me a message on instagram @happyandhealthy96, or leaving a review on Itunes.

A Beautiful Mess- Be Careful What You Wish For, Love Languages & The Power of Words

Today I wanted to chat with you guys about the importance of being wary of the vocabulary we use. I've been working on specifically eliminating the word "should" and also apologizing incessantly when I've done nothing at fault. These seemingly frivolous words can actually trickle down and inform the way we subconsciously value ourselves.

I'd love to know what you guys think about this topic!

Thank you all so much for listening, and as always, let me know your feedback by sending me a message on instagram @happyandhealthy96, or leaving a review on Itunes.

A Beautiful Mess - Patience, the missing piece to self love?

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Today we explore the interplay between how patience informs self love and self love allows patience. I also touch on my personal experiences of losing the plot and losing myself in social media, and how to maybe avoid doing what I did ahha. But mostly I'm still hanging out in this theme of practicing this way of being where we are more loving, kind and compassionate with ourselves. 

Thank you all so much for listening, and as always, let me know your feedback by sending me a message on instagram @happyandhealthy96, or leaving a review on Itunes.